Why would you want to be depressed? I would not wish this on any of my worst enemies, yet you want to be depressed, because you feel left out? So you think wanting to end your life, purposely harming yourself, not being able to get up in the morning, no inclination to anything among other things is going to help you feel more included? You have no clue what this does to people, how many people do end up killing themselves, and you want that for yourself? I’m sorry, but you just do not understand. You should be trying to help your friends through a difficult time, not sat there feeling sorry for yourself because you aren’t depressed as well.